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[00:01:05] Hello, hello, all of my beautiful freaking people. Welcome back to another episode of FML Talk. It is December. It is the holidays. It is that magical time of year. So we're going to do our monthly Tay and Gabs episode. So sit back, grab a cocktail or a hot chocolate and welcome to FML Talk.

[00:01:26] Oh my God. Wait, how old was the other girl? 19. Can you believe us? Hey, this is Gabrielle Stone.

[00:01:31] Good book.

[00:01:32] I did not introduce her to her dad.

[00:01:33] He did what?

[00:01:34] 48 hours?

[00:01:35] What a dick.

[00:01:36] Yeah, but have you seen all the photos on her Instagram?

[00:01:39] Oh my God.

[00:01:39] And this is FML Talk.

[00:01:41] Oh no, she didn't.

[00:01:43] Hi Tay, I'm already annoyed.

[00:01:47] Oh, you're telling me about it. I mean, dude, I think it's me that annoys you.

[00:01:52] It's not.

[00:01:52] I mean, no.

[00:01:53] It's just that the pace people do things sometimes.

[00:01:56] Oh, dude, it can't be fast enough for you. And it's real fucking difficult sometimes to

[00:02:03] be in a relationship with you.

[00:02:05] I mean, just say it outright out.

[00:02:08] Okay. Look, guys, we're trying to, we're scheduled.

[00:02:11] No, look, guys.

[00:02:12] No, shut up. This is my show.

[00:02:13] I have food in my mouth. I wasn't even able to finish my fucking bite of everything but

[00:02:20] the bagel, bagel, bagel. And I fucking have seeds in my teeth. I can't even wash it down

[00:02:30] with coffee because we got to go, go, go.

[00:02:33] Are you PMSing?

[00:02:34] Oh, it felt good to release that.

[00:02:37] Okay.

[00:02:38] I'm so glad.

[00:02:39] Listen, guys, I'm already like, my baseline is already a little irritated because I'm looking

[00:02:44] over at my husband. He shaved his goddamn face for a fucking audition.

[00:02:49] So like, I'm already a little angry.

[00:02:52] We're not having fun.

[00:02:55] What's that line from Sarah Marshall? We're like the nerdy guy and his, the chick that's

[00:03:00] on their honeymoon. And she's, he's like, we're trying to fuck and we're not having fun

[00:03:04] fucking off to find the mythical clitoris.

[00:03:07] Yes.

[00:03:08] I love it.

[00:03:08] Okay. Happy holidays, everyone.

[00:03:10] Yeah. Merry, merry.

[00:03:11] Are you in the, are you in the spirit?

[00:03:14] Are you drunk?

[00:03:15] Anyways, yeah.

[00:03:15] Tay and I were on coffee. Tay and I are scheduled within an inch of our lives right now. It's

[00:03:20] literally been just a month of pure chaos. Like the schedules are scheduling. There is no

[00:03:26] downtime. It's just been bananas.

[00:03:29] Yeah, it's been bananas.

[00:03:30] Like truly bananas.

[00:03:31] The indigestion is indigestion.

[00:03:36] Like literally fresh off the bagel.

[00:03:38] The Tums need to be tummy.

[00:03:40] No guys. Yeah. It's, it's been a wild ride the past, I'd say, you know, six years.

[00:03:49] I swear to God, it's the morning guys. We're not drunk yet. We're just, we're really getting

[00:03:55] through it.

[00:03:56] Loopy on lack of sleep.

[00:03:57] Um, what are we doing here? What are we talking about?

[00:03:59] Well, so, you know, we're in toddlerville. Um, our, our lovely, amazing motherfucking angel

[00:04:05] baby is just running around like a crazy person 24 seven. Um, and he's awesome and amazing.

[00:04:10] And it's been a wildly fun stage. We also are big white dog. Franklin just got major surgery.

[00:04:18] He tore his ACL. So it was like a whole thing having to keep him sequestered in our bedroom

[00:04:25] and bathroom with a fucking cone on and like sedated. And it's like having another baby.

[00:04:32] Yeah. And then we do this and then we have to do it again to the other knee. Poor dog.

[00:04:36] Well, that's going to be a little further down the road, but like it's just been, but can

[00:04:41] I just make a, make a disclaimer? I think Stone wanted to make a little disclaimer right there

[00:04:48] too. Um, I'd like to make a little disclaimer and make a big shout out to pet insurance.

[00:04:55] Yeah. I mean, thank you very much. Yeah. It would have F'd us in the A. Yeah. I mean,

[00:05:01] I just don't even know how people, what would you do? I mean, there's no, you,

[00:05:07] certain people would either get fucked or they end up not doing it because they can't,

[00:05:13] which sucks for the pet. Um, but yeah, it's brutal. Yeah. It's brutal. But anyways, he's,

[00:05:19] I think he's going to, he's, he's on the mend. It's going to, we're doing it. He's young. So

[00:05:23] he's going to still have a great life ahead of him. Yep. Auntie Brit, um, AKA Jess from Eat,

[00:05:29] Prey FML has been back hanging at the house a lot, which makes me very happy. Her and Stone

[00:05:35] have been bonding, which is very cute and adorable. She's been like a super big help.

[00:05:39] And on top of everything else, we just turned in the last edit for our book.

[00:05:46] Yeah, that's a big one. I think that's like quite possibly, I think we've touched up on this on one

[00:05:52] of the minis, but quite possibly one of the biggest vent adventures and ventures of my life.

[00:06:00] Yeah. Like it's been a big deal and, and a lot of work and it has not been easy. Um, for a multitude

[00:06:08] of reasons, shall I, shall I state the big one, the big obvious one, the big obvious reason

[00:06:16] you're crazy. Am I crazy? Or do I just like stick to a normal schedule?

[00:06:22] I can there be both yet? No, no, no, no. There's no normal.

[00:06:26] Am I crazy or do I have a passion or ambition? Well, I've stated that.

[00:06:30] Am I crazy or do I just do things better? Again, there can be both. You can, that can be.

[00:06:36] I hope people get our humor. I think some people might listen to this and be like, wow,

[00:06:39] they fucking hate each other. I know. I know. Sometimes I think people do because when we're

[00:06:44] in person and we give each other shit, we're pretty funny. I think it's pretty, we're pretty

[00:06:49] funny. We're here to, we're here to amuse you. So let me entertain you. It's not like Abbott and

[00:06:55] Costello. It's more like Tweedledum and Tweedledee. No one listening to this show knows that first

[00:07:01] reference that you just made. That was a roast beef moment. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Let me tell

[00:07:09] everybody raise their hand and tell me you've heard of Abbott and Costello. You've never

[00:07:14] heard of Abbott and Costello. Never. No. Gabrielle, your mom is a freaking movie legend. Girl,

[00:07:22] you got to fucking pull it together. You got to just do better. Get some fucking culture.

[00:07:27] Yeah. What is it? An old movie like black and white. It's an old couple. It's a, it's a,

[00:07:35] it's a comedy duo. No, I got that from what? Oh, it's, it's just a troupe. They did a bunch

[00:07:40] of movies. It's kind of like the three stooges. Oh, okay. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Anyways, well,

[00:07:45] whatever. Yes. And they were black and white. So, okay. That ages me out. Shall I just leave?

[00:07:51] I mean, because it's not aging you out. I know a lot of people that really love black and white films.

[00:07:57] It's just not my jam and I get it. Like, yeah, I don't know if it's the time I grew up in. I also

[00:08:02] like, don't love a lot of like, whatever. I don't want to have this conversation. People have already

[00:08:07] ripped into me on this podcast and earlier episodes for this. It was probably you, but it was other

[00:08:10] people as well. So fuck off. I don't want to talk about it. About your movie knowledge?

[00:08:13] Not movie, not movie knowledge, but like, how could you not appreciate the classics?

[00:08:18] Yeah. Your movie appreciation. No, no, that's, that's good. So let's talk about roast beef.

[00:08:22] So people know that reference. Okay. Yeah. Um, that was coined by Miss Brittany and she basically,

[00:08:29] we were in a group, we're in our group chat, me and Tay and Brit. And, um, he was like, yeah,

[00:08:36] I'm going to go pick up sandwiches. What does everybody want? Or she said that you wrote back,

[00:08:40] I want roast beef. And she was like, nobody eats roast beef. That's such an old man.

[00:08:46] Yeah. Like nobody under the age of roast beef.

[00:08:49] And so then it became funny. And now anytime he says something that's like, we don't understand.

[00:08:55] And she's like, Oh, is that like a roast beef thing? Yeah. It's so funny for them.

[00:09:02] I just sit here and be like, Oh my God, my hair is gray. My I'm losing it.

[00:09:08] Your hair is not gray, but I can't wait for your beard to be back.

[00:09:11] Right. Yeah. Cause I kissed you the other day and felt like I was cheating on my husband.

[00:09:15] Ew. Um, but here's the thing. I kind of get some compliments when it's, when it's shaven.

[00:09:23] They're lying to you. I'm just kidding.

[00:09:27] It could be.

[00:09:28] No, but it's because they don't know the bearded you.

[00:09:31] What do you think? I look older when I'm shaved?

[00:09:34] No, it's not an older, younger thing.

[00:09:36] Or you see the, the, the imperfections.

[00:09:39] No, I think it's the same as like when a dad in like those TikTok videos comes out to their little

[00:09:45] baby with a shaved face and they burst into tears. It's bad.

[00:09:48] Oh my God.

[00:09:49] It's jarring and it's different and I don't like it.

[00:09:51] I have two fun stories regarding that one, one, a girlfriend that I had that happened.

[00:09:57] Laura.

[00:09:59] Why is it no matter what, even with my kid or any one of my best friends, it's always

[00:10:05] all right. Nobody knows the reference. So we're just having a little tea party. You and me.

[00:10:10] Um, no, I had a beard the whole time. And then sure enough, I, we went to her, her parents'

[00:10:16] house over like a holiday and I shaved and came out of the bathroom.

[00:10:21] Why would you ever do that? That's so fucked up.

[00:10:23] And she like, couldn't take it. She, she broke down and cried in front of the family.

[00:10:30] Well, like you, why would you do that? I was like, wait, wait, function.

[00:10:34] Wait, wasn't that a fit? I was going to her house to stay. It wasn't a family function.

[00:10:38] I was just staying with her and her family.

[00:10:40] Was it the first time you had met her family?

[00:10:42] Um, no, I had met her family. Like it's like, look at my like hot boyfriend. Like that.

[00:10:48] I love.

[00:10:48] And then you come out shaven and you're like, oh, this is a different person.

[00:10:52] Well, I mean, it's weird because everybody each to their own. Here's the other, uh, other

[00:10:56] story. This wasn't that long ago with the person that you had the producer friend that

[00:11:03] we just talked about this morning. Um, she couldn't look at me with any facial hair on

[00:11:10] my face. That's a trauma response. So it is. And I asked her, I said, that must be some

[00:11:16] things in and it is. Oh, so you just like what shaved all the time. Yeah. Yeah. Cause

[00:11:21] I like made her feel really uncomfortable. No, I like you're a good person for the

[00:11:26] stuff, but like, that's, I can't. Right. I mean, imagine the difference now. You are

[00:11:31] so fucking livid when I, when I, when I shave, I just prefer some facial hair, dude, especially

[00:11:37] like on like, you know, older, more like refined dudes. It's like, I don't want your face to

[00:11:44] look like my like baby butt, you know, or your baby's butt. Yeah. He's got a really cute,

[00:11:51] but anytime he's like walking around in the bath or like naked taste like he's got your

[00:11:55] butt. No, no, no, not only about your whole lower half. Yeah. The lower half is you copy

[00:12:02] paste. Yeah. Including the penis. He's got my penis too, guys. I think he might have my,

[00:12:09] my shoulders. What? That's so random. What do you mean? My upper half. Your shoulders

[00:12:16] are fucked. Don't wish that upon our son. My shoulders aren't fucked. Your shoulders

[00:12:19] are fucked. No, that's because I went out. That was when I was younger, when I wasn't,

[00:12:22] you know, taking care of my shoulders. Oh my God. So I can't tell you what you did pass

[00:12:28] down to our child. Don't tell me. Okay. Earwax. Yes. Ding, ding, ding. What do we have?

[00:12:37] God, let me show on a game show. We should get on a game show where they like, that's the newlywed

[00:12:43] game. Yes. I love that game. That's a roast beef thing. Where's the weirdest place you've made

[00:12:51] whoopie? Oh my gosh. That's what they fucking called it in the newlywed game.

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[00:14:52] digesting and I haven't had enough coffee so what do you want? I hope people are, uh, laughing along with

[00:14:58] us. Okay, so I wasn't going to announce this until next week's solo episode, but I feel like I have to

[00:15:06] kind of like preface it for you guys. Make sure you tune in to next week's solo episode. It'll be the

[00:15:11] first episode in January. It will also be a farewell episode because as you all know, I have been

[00:15:22] struggling with the do I continue the podcast? Do I take a break? Like what does this new revamp

[00:15:28] look like to me in this next chapter? And what I have decided is to move the entire show over to

[00:15:37] Patreon and do the, you know, there's 14 seasons on there of mini bonus episodes that are like

[00:15:46] so much fun. I just recently went back and like reorganized everything so that the new people that

[00:15:51] go over can binge them very easily, but there's so much fun. Tay is on two complete seasons of those.

[00:15:57] There's like one season that's fully just book two behind the scenes, deleted chapters,

[00:16:04] lots of tea. And then there's like special guest episodes where we did like dirty little secrets

[00:16:09] and, um, like hilarious stuff. And then there's seasons that are FML's guide to healing. Uh, my mom

[00:16:16] did a full season, which was super powerful. So there's like tons and tons of shit to go binge,

[00:16:22] but we're basically going to the dirty little secret video. I mean, uh, it was multiple,

[00:16:27] people. What was yours? I don't remember, but you came on and talked about Paris Hilton and cocaine.

[00:16:34] So, Oh, and sushi. Yeah. Oh yeah. There's a lot of good, dirty little secrets. Um, scout did one

[00:16:42] of those. Morgan Willett did one of those. Um, Carly Craig did one of those. They're, they're really

[00:16:47] fun. Um, but anyways, so starting in January after next week's final solo episode, which I hope you

[00:16:56] guys all tune into because it'll be a good one and a last hurrah. Um, and a thank you to all of you for

[00:17:03] being here for the past four fucking years, which is insane to say. Um, it will, the show FML talk will

[00:17:10] be moving over to Patreon fully and those episodes, instead of just being mini bonus 15 to 20 minute

[00:17:16] episodes will be closer to 30 minutes and they'll release once a week. So basically the show will be

[00:17:21] exactly the same. It will just be on Patreon, which comes with a whole bunch of other bonuses. You can

[00:17:27] get added to the close friends on Instagram, which gets like all the behind the scenes, lots of

[00:17:32] awesome pictures of that little baby that's outside screaming right now.

[00:17:36] That sounds like a little dinosaur.

[00:17:38] I mean, dude, it's okay. Stone, we're just recording a podcast. Carry on. And I, I hope to

[00:17:45] see you all there, but this is basically, I'm saying all of this because this is my final episode

[00:17:52] on the main show on here with Tay and I, although we will be doing lots of this ridiculous banter,

[00:17:58] fun episode stuff on Patreon. Um, so with that being said, what do you kind of like want to leave people

[00:18:11] with, um, for those that won't come join the party on Patreon and like continue on in that sense?

[00:18:18] It's kind of, uh, you know, we, we come on here and there's been a few times where, where I remember

[00:18:25] one time before I got on, I was crying. I was literally having probably one of the worst days

[00:18:30] I've had in years. Um, and we still did it. Uh, but most of the time it's shit like today where

[00:18:38] we're laughing and it's fun. And, and I think the biggest thing to leave is that I'd like to leave

[00:18:45] is that look, it's okay to not be okay when you're not. It's fine that, uh, if you lose yourself

[00:18:52] and you, you can refine yourself and regain the composure that you had, uh, you just have to

[00:18:58] kind of stick with it. It's, um, I'm a perfect living example of that. I, I, I'm like, I go through

[00:19:06] struggles all the time, constantly relearning lessons that I thought I've, you know, shelved

[00:19:14] many, many years ago. And so I think just it's like, it's okay to not be okay. It's okay to struggle.

[00:19:20] It's okay to fucking make mistakes. It's okay to make the wrong decision and be like, Oh, okay,

[00:19:26] well I'm going to do this now, I guess for a little while. It's just okay. Yeah. I mean, yeah.

[00:19:31] Yeah. I completely agree. And we just went through kind of like a rough couple, two weeks where

[00:19:38] some shit was coming to the surface that like everybody needed to look at in their own lives

[00:19:43] respectively. And in like our, our relationship and like, I'd say more like a month instead of two

[00:19:51] weeks. Yeah. Okay. I was about to say two months and, um, so much so that I looked at Tay and was

[00:19:59] like, I think we need to write about this in the new book. Um, like, I think we need to add a chapter.

[00:20:05] Um, that is essentially what you just said. It's okay not to be okay, which I've talked about so many

[00:20:13] times in my books on this show. Um, that you, just because you go through some shit or some old wounds

[00:20:22] appear or some lessons that you thought you learned come up again, it doesn't mean that you've like

[00:20:28] taken 20 steps back or that, you know, you're back to where you started or you're unhealed.

[00:20:33] It just means that you're evolving and that there is another layer happening. Um, and it might be

[00:20:41] uncomfortable and it might suck and it might not feel great, but it's good in the long run. Like

[00:20:48] good stuff is coming from it. It's part of the process, part of the journey. Healing is not fucking

[00:20:53] linear. Um, it is a squiggly, curly loop de loop motherfucking line. And it, it, it takes time.

[00:21:02] It's like an onion. It's an onion. Yeah. Healing resembles life. It's all over the place and it's

[00:21:08] never, it's never going to be, um, just all perfect and smiles and laughter. And if you, if it isn't going

[00:21:18] to be like that the whole time, you might as well try to respect if not, if not more like enjoy even the

[00:21:26] times that aren't that great. I will say as, as, as wonderful of an experience, the writing was of

[00:21:36] the book. Um, I was done. I was done when it was over. Yeah. And the second you said, you know what,

[00:21:45] we need to write this next, another chapter, right? As we were finishing our last edit,

[00:21:50] you were like, I'm going to kill you in your sleep. Like I knew there was, we had to, it wasn't,

[00:21:57] I didn't, that initial reaction wasn't like, Oh fuck. I can't believe we're going to, that was my

[00:22:02] second reaction. Right. My initial reaction was, yeah, we do. We have to, we have to, even though

[00:22:07] it's going to be fucking painful and not really, but like, where's the time? Yeah. Yeah. And also

[00:22:14] it's like, it's a tough subject. So now you're laying it out what's wrong and why you're like

[00:22:19] fucking feeling funky. Yeah. I think, um, we were both, well, I'll speak for myself, but I think

[00:22:26] it was collective. I was having some imposter syndrome about like, who am I to write a third

[00:22:33] book about healing and lessons that I've learned and, you know, guiding people to figuring some of

[00:22:43] their shit out and healing some wounds? I guess I could say fourth because of the journal, but,

[00:22:48] um, like, who am I to be doing that? If I'm like floundering regularly seeking therapy,

[00:22:54] like I'm like treading water in my own shit right now. Yeah. And I think that,

[00:23:01] I think that's why it's tough not to interrupt you. That's why it's hard. The, the, the majority of

[00:23:07] the book is about things that we've already gone through and learned from and learned from.

[00:23:12] Yeah. This shit is happening like yesterday and this morning and things like work continually

[00:23:21] facing and trying to solve or fix or however you want to look at it. And that's why it was hard

[00:23:28] to write. It was very difficult for me to write the book because I was reliving my past, but I didn't,

[00:23:34] wasn't bothered by that other than, but a few paragraphs here and there going like,

[00:23:38] oh shit, my kid's going to read this one of these days. Yeah. But like this chapter was the one that

[00:23:45] kind of messed with me a little bit. Well, I was proud of you for really going there. Um,

[00:23:50] cause I know it's not easy material to write on, especially when we're like in it currently,

[00:23:55] but I think it's going to resonate with a lot of people. Um, a lot of men for sure,

[00:24:00] but a lot of people in general. And I think that chapter adding that last chapter alleviated some

[00:24:08] of that pressure and imposter syndrome. And I think it really humanizes us as authors, you know? So

[00:24:16] like when people are reading it, they're like, oh, okay. I see myself in them because I don't have to

[00:24:25] like be totally fine and healed. And like, right. I, there's so much bullshit in our society on social

[00:24:31] media and like content where people are just like, yeah, everything's great. We've done the work and

[00:24:37] it's fabulous. And now like rainbows are coming out of my asshole and it's wonderful. Um, and that's

[00:24:42] just not fucking real. Um, so that's why when I post on my story, like, Hey, I'm totally drowning

[00:24:48] and like have been crying for the last 12 hours just so you, and anytime I post stuff like that,

[00:24:54] I get fucking flooded with messages about people being like, dude, me too. Thank you. Like,

[00:25:00] thank you for reminding me that like people that look like they're thriving and have everything they

[00:25:06] want are still feeling like this for no fucking reason. Right. It's like photo filters, but not,

[00:25:11] uh, on a photo. It's like on your life. Yeah. Yeah. But no, I'm, we're not refined at all.

[00:25:25] I mean, we're, I'm, I'll speak for myself. I'm extremely rough around the edges. I'm figuring it out.

[00:25:31] And I am, you know, a lot of cases, some would say, well, you should already have it figured out,

[00:25:37] but see, here's, I challenge that because here's why I challenge that because as we get older,

[00:25:43] we're progressing, we're getting, we're changing. So all of the lessons that I learned when I was 20,

[00:25:49] that I have now shelved that are coming back or not all, but lesson here and a lesson there,

[00:25:56] you know, I'm a different person than when I learned that lesson and I've changed drastically.

[00:26:01] Somebody made a comment to me, uh, the other day, just the other day, I went to visit him at his movie

[00:26:08] premiere. And we were talking about the difference between raising a kid when I'm when back then,

[00:26:15] as opposed to now. And he's like, you can't even, you can't even, it's not even on the same scale.

[00:26:21] You are a totally different person, right? Like 100%. Not only was the woman totally different,

[00:26:29] but you were just a completely different person. And I looked at him like, wow, really? I mean,

[00:26:35] because I always thought I've just been Tay, you know, but like you change. Yeah. You change

[00:26:40] drastically. So those lessons will come up and don't just sweep them under the rug.

[00:26:45] It's so funny that you like, don't look at yourself like that because I've always looked

[00:26:49] at you like that. And that's why like, it's two different. Well, yeah. Like when,

[00:26:54] you know, we have a really chill 95% of the time co-parenting situation with, with your ex,

[00:27:02] with Junie's mom. Yeah. Um, but the, that 5%, when things would happen, um, the person I was talking

[00:27:10] about and defending and the person she was talking about and upset with were two different people.

[00:27:16] You know what I mean? And that's why I would always get so triggered. I would be like

[00:27:20] the person that you're complaining about and the things that you're listing are in the past and

[00:27:26] not who this person is anymore. Um, and that would always really frustrate me, but that was her

[00:27:31] experience with you because you were a different person back then. Yeah. You know, I mean, like I have

[00:27:36] exes who would sit down and like sing my praises and be like, she's fucking rad. And like,

[00:27:40] she's so cool and like, she's a great person. Right. And I have exes that would be like,

[00:27:45] yeah, stay away. I know that is like putting it so lightly,

[00:27:51] but that's their experience and their perspective. Yeah. You know,

[00:27:55] you can be pretty ruthless. I know you. No, dude. If ruthless is being like, Oh, I'm going to

[00:28:04] divorce you for sleeping with a child and then write two books about it and, you know,

[00:28:10] talk about it on social media. If that's ruthless, then I'm the most cutthroat

[00:28:15] bitch that there is out there. But,

[00:28:21] okay. We are going to normally on, on our episodes, we take questions from you guys submitted

[00:28:30] on my Instagram. Um, I wanted to do that this time because it is our last episode on the main

[00:28:38] show. I feel like it's the end of an era. The first time you, I, I'm not going to get emotional

[00:28:44] now. I'll get emotional on next week's episode when I do my solo. Um, we'll save the tissues and

[00:28:48] the tears for then. Um, cause I have some special things planned for the solo, but, um, the first

[00:28:54] time you were ever on this show was in season one, it was episode like six or seven. And it was like,

[00:29:04] I feel like we have both individually and together lived so much fucking life.

[00:29:10] That was at our other house. Yeah. Um, sitting in the office, like back when Jackie was producing

[00:29:16] and like everything was done in person and like, it was a full learning curve.

[00:29:21] 2019? No, it was 2020.

[00:29:22] 2020.

[00:29:23] Yeah. Um,

[00:29:25] So wild.

[00:29:27] You started this in COVID?

[00:29:28] I started this towards the end of 2020.

[00:29:30] Yeah.

[00:29:31] Yeah.

[00:29:31] It was a whole different time.

[00:29:34] I got to go back and listen to that and see.

[00:29:35] Oh my God. We're probably so awkward and not comfortable. Like the transition from that to

[00:29:41] then is probably like now we just don't give it.

[00:29:44] Yeah. But like now it's like fun and just ridiculous. And, but yeah, I feel like it was

[00:29:49] probably more performative and like, you know, nerves were probably there. Um, and then you

[00:29:57] came on and did two whole seasons of tea time with Tay.

[00:30:01] God, that was fun.

[00:30:02] Those are so I was, when I was reorganizing Patreon, I was going back and looking at all

[00:30:06] the different seasons I've done. And not only is there so much like good content there,

[00:30:10] like I was like, Oh my God, yeah, this and this and this, there's like fun, ridiculous stuff.

[00:30:15] There's stuff that's like, so like monumentally important and therapy driven. I'm like really

[00:30:23] like proud to look back on like the catalog of shit I have put out. There's hundreds and

[00:30:28] hundreds of episodes on this, on this platform on FML talk that I know my listeners go back and,

[00:30:35] and re-listen to specific episodes that stood out to them. Like I know people are new people are

[00:30:41] going to find the show anytime. Um, they come across me or one of my books. I know that there

[00:30:46] are things in the future that my Patreon people know about, um, that I can't talk about publicly

[00:30:52] that when that starts to take shape and come to fruition, I I'm sure I will come back onto this

[00:30:59] platform, um, and, and either pick up and do some special episodes or, you know, see where we're at.

[00:31:06] But it, it was really a moment for me when I was reorganizing the Patreon stuff and I looked back

[00:31:13] and I was like, wow, like there's like a lot of really great stuff that I've created here for people

[00:31:20] to digest and enjoy and heal from and laugh with me and like be a safe space. Um, and I'm proud of

[00:31:29] myself for that. Oh my God. I'm so proud of you. I mean, the amount that you've done just from that

[00:31:34] book, if every, if anybody could see what I'm looking at, it's, it's a big poster of her first

[00:31:39] book and there's two of them. One is their second book, but it all started from that. It all started

[00:31:44] with the kids. No, it didn't start it from fucking. Listen, you guys, this new book, um,

[00:31:52] the Tay and I are doing, there's going to be so many things that like only my OG people really

[00:32:00] understand and get and appreciate because I feel like this book is going to span and capture an

[00:32:07] entirely new audience who like don't really know about the FML world, which I love. And we have to

[00:32:12] reference it every once in a while, uh, to, to, but there's one really great moment where we're kind

[00:32:18] of like each writing, um, about our relationship journey and Tay's section is like, okay, where do

[00:32:24] I start? It all started with a kiss. Wait, record scratch, wrong book. And I'm like, you know what?

[00:32:30] Leave it in. Nobody that doesn't know FML is going to fucking understand what the hell that means.

[00:32:35] But all of my people are going to appreciate it so much that you should just leave it.

[00:32:40] And so it stays. Yeah. I'm excited for that new book. I'm excited for the, the journey.

[00:32:47] It took you a while. What? It took you a minute. I think it took you like until you read it the

[00:32:52] first time or read the first couple of chapters. Oh, to be excited about it. I was like, bitch,

[00:32:56] I was ready to turn this edit in so long ago. What do you mean? It took me a while.

[00:32:59] Oh no, it took me a while to write it, but I mean, no, to get excited about it.

[00:33:04] Yeah. I think it was just in the chaos of like, you know, juggling motherhood and then like trying

[00:33:10] to squeeze the time into right. It was a very different experience for me.

[00:33:13] And if you're anything like me, you come up with a damn good idea and then like fester on it for

[00:33:18] about a month. And then it just. Yeah, no. And if you're anything like me, I'm like, okay,

[00:33:23] that idea you just came up with needs to be done in the next fucking three weeks.

[00:33:27] Didn't we start this fucking podcast with like, you drive me crazy for that same reason,

[00:33:31] but yet. Hey, look at this. We've got a book guys. Look at this. Do you think Tay would ever

[00:33:36] call himself an author if I wasn't cracking the whip considerably? Yeah. Like, I mean,

[00:33:41] I think I would, but like it would have taken me a lot longer and you know, yeah, no, this is like,

[00:33:49] this was real. Yeah. Well, I'm excited for everybody to eventually get to read your story,

[00:33:55] but yeah, I got excited about it and I was really proud of it. Reading it back this last time I was

[00:34:00] like, Oh shit, this is actually really good. Yeah. I was like very impressed. Very entertaining.

[00:34:05] However, I did one time jump up and say, we're not, we're not doing it. It's over.

[00:34:09] We can't post this. We can't do it. Which I love. I secretly love seeing other people experience that

[00:34:14] because that's all I went through with like the edit of eat prayer from hell and the ridiculous

[00:34:18] misadventures. I was like, Oh my God, I'm going to get sued. Oh my God. People are going to come

[00:34:22] after me. Oh my God. What is this person going to think? Oh my God. My mother's going to just

[00:34:25] fucking pass away from like reading this. It's so weird how fucking people like creep up in your

[00:34:30] mind that you have not thought about in 20 years. Like Lara. And then you start writing the book and

[00:34:38] you're like, God, I wonder if that person's going to read it. You're like, Oh my God. And then it

[00:34:42] just starts. Welcome to the dark side. Whatever. Yeah. Um, anyways, I'm excited for you guys to be able to

[00:34:49] experience that. Um, if you do come join the party on Patreon, you will be taken step-by-step

[00:34:55] along the way with us and a lot of other really exciting things. Um, but no pressure. I get how

[00:35:00] expensive and insane life is, but if you want to support me and Tay and continue on this like really

[00:35:08] fun journey, I promise I really show up there and really make it worth what, you know, you pay

[00:35:15] monthly, which is really just the size of a large Starbucks coffee.

[00:35:17] And it's going to be kind of fun because not kind of, it's going to be fucking really fun

[00:35:21] once we are in, in that and the book has been released and we're like fucking delving in.

[00:35:27] Yeah. I think that's going to be, because here's the things, you know, you're writing a book.

[00:35:32] Yeah. You can, you can, you can lay out the story and you can spell it out for the most part,

[00:35:40] but you can't, I mean, it's, you got to keep it somewhat trimmed. I mean, there's so much more

[00:35:45] to certain parts of those stories that I, I, you know, yeah. So yeah, we can really get into it.

[00:35:53] It's going to be a lot of fun. Yeah. I'm excited. All right. We are going to turn to your questions.

[00:35:58] Now, here we go. What do you love most about parenting a boy trying to keep this motherfucker

[00:36:10] alive? But really, well, I mean, but really, um, I think the anticipation of him calming down

[00:36:19] was kind of fun. I did. I like him jumping off the walls and like having fun. He seems like he's like,

[00:36:25] he also gets really like cute and sweet and snuggly. And it's, it's just, it's chaos, but

[00:36:34] he's so cute and getting so like, just develops in a new way every day. Every time he walks out of

[00:36:41] his room, I'm like, why did you grow a year overnight? Right. Yeah. It's definitely happening

[00:36:46] a little too fast. Interesting. It's all happening too fast, but then it, that happened. That's,

[00:36:52] that's not a boy girl thing. Right. Same, same thing. That's just a time flies and life is wild.

[00:36:57] Yeah, I agree. I agree. What is your, what is your favorite color? These are the questions that

[00:37:05] came in. What is my favorite color? Yes. I'm in my blue phase right now as he wears his blue shirt.

[00:37:10] Yeah. I was big on red for probably 25, 30 years, my whole life up until yeah, about 10 years ago.

[00:37:21] Fair. We're going to move on. That was a weird fucking question.

[00:37:24] Moved into the blue period. Um, what is, what's your favorite color?

[00:37:29] Ah, I don't really have one turquoise probably. Okay. Um, but like also black. No, not really pink.

[00:37:36] I mean, I use a lot of pink, but I wouldn't say it's a favorite color. Right. Um, what is

[00:37:41] one of your most favorite qualities about yourself? Um, I would say for me, it's my ambition.

[00:37:55] Yeah, I would say that about you. Um, I think, uh, my acceptance of pretty much everything.

[00:38:07] Hmm. I I I'm, I'm fine with pretty much anything. I don't easygoing. Yeah. There it is. Yeah. I

[00:38:13] don't really like care. Like when it, like if you want to go to this restaurant, okay. Like

[00:38:20] it's rare that I'm like, Oh my God, I have to have this. Right. Like I can be, I can be easily.

[00:38:25] Yeah. You know? Yeah, I agree. I think I would say one of my favorite qualities about you

[00:38:32] is your willingness to be open and growing. Oh, and like your openness to changing and evolving and

[00:38:45] growing together. Oh, cool. Yeah. Some people are in their roast beef era. They're like stuck in

[00:38:52] their ways. Right. No. Yeah. I'm not. And that's, that's a big part of the book that we're writing.

[00:38:58] Yeah. It's like not being stuck in your ways and being able to evolve and grow. Yes. Change. Um,

[00:39:03] this is kind of a fun question. Um, if you were having your final meal in prison, I guess it doesn't

[00:39:09] have to be. It's so weird that you're asking my favorite. Who fucking say these? Because I'll tell

[00:39:13] you what, I ask these to my acting students all the time. These types of questions. Weird.

[00:39:19] What's your last, what's your final meal? Yeah. Quick. I do it all the time. Oh,

[00:39:24] fucking cereal at any form in any form. You're not, you're not going to have like a steak. Okay.

[00:39:30] Yeah. Or like a burger. I want to surf and turf. I want like the best, best fucking cheeseburger on

[00:39:34] the planet. I feel that's wildly different than cereal, but it has cereal has to be involved.

[00:39:40] Okay. So with a side of cereal on this final meal or cereal, like crumbled on the burger.

[00:39:45] No. Okay. If for my final meal, I'm going to have a surf and turf that steak and lobster filet,

[00:39:51] middle cut and the, uh, and the lobster. I'll also have the garlic mashed potatoes. I was going to say

[00:39:58] potatoes, Oh, but I don't want that. I'm going with mashers. We're going to go no greens this time.

[00:40:05] Wow. None because what's the point. Right. And, um, Oh, and then, uh, so you're like

[00:40:12] really passionate burger. I'm going to have a nice cheeseburger on the side of that.

[00:40:16] That's like five meals. Yeah. And then, um,

[00:40:21] for sure. Dr. Pepper and for sure cereal. Okay. A hundred dollars. If you can guess

[00:40:27] strawberry shortcake on this, uh, after the cereal, Jesus Christ, fruity pebbles, probably

[00:40:32] maybe, are you, are you done? Or oops, it's all berries. Jesus Christ. All right, go a hundred

[00:40:39] dollars. If you can tell me what my final meal is, I'm going to fucking take the money from you.

[00:40:44] It's just a generic answer, but go ahead. Like it doesn't have to be specific.

[00:40:50] Oh my God. I want to say linguine and clam. Do you even know me? Why are we married?

[00:40:58] That was the, that was your, that was your favorite when you were a kid and I was thinking you were

[00:41:02] going backwards. Okay. Um, three, two, one sushi. You got it. I'm not going to give you a hundred

[00:41:13] dollars. I'm going to take it. You guys, we love you. Please join me for our farewell episode next

[00:41:20] week. Um, bring some tissues, bring a cocktail, bring all the things. I love you dearly. Um,

[00:41:27] Tay, say goodbye. Love you. Love you. Love you. Thank you guys. We'll see you on the other platform.

[00:41:32] Bye. Bye. All right. FMLers. If you don't want to miss an episode, make sure to follow on your

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