Goodbye for Now: The Final F%cking Episode

[00:00:00] What is up, all of my beautiful freaking people? Welcome back to the final episode of FML Talk. Grab some tissues, grab a cocktail, and welcome to FML Talk.

[00:00:15] Oh my God. Wait, how old was the other girl? 19. Can you believe that?

[00:00:19] Hey, this is Gabrielle Stone.

[00:00:20] Good book.

[00:00:21] I forgot to check out that.

[00:00:22] He did what? 48 hours?

[00:00:25] What a dick.

[00:00:26] Yeah, but have you seen all the photos on her Instagram?

[00:00:28] And this is FML Talk.

[00:00:31] Oh no, she didn't.

[00:00:32] Wow, you guys, I don't even know how to start this episode. It feels like the end of a chapter,

[00:00:40] like the end of an era. When I started this show back in the end of 2020, my girlfriend Jackie was

[00:00:48] like, you should do a podcast, I'll produce it. I was like, who's even going to listen to that? Like,

[00:00:54] maybe, I don't know, a thousand of my readers. And lo and behold, four years later, hundreds of episodes

[00:01:03] later, so many incredible guests that have changed my outlook and perspective on life.

[00:01:09] So many messages from you guys on different episodes that have resonated with you, that have touched you,

[00:01:16] that have helped you grow in some way, shape or form. It really has been a really incredible run.

[00:01:25] And I want to start this episode by saying thank you for just taking the fucking ride with me,

[00:01:33] whether you found me by way of Eat, Pray, FML or the Fuck Off I'm Healing journal or some stupid

[00:01:41] TikTok of me dancing, talking about my shit show of a past. And you started the podcast before you went to

[00:01:49] the books, however you found me, however you ended up here. Thank you for being here. Thank you for tuning

[00:01:54] in every week. Thank you for your love and support and understanding when I needed to take some time or when I

[00:02:04] wasn't super happy. I have felt your support and your love on this journey every step of the fucking way.

[00:02:11] And I truly, truly thank you for that. So before we get into today's episode, just do me a solid

[00:02:20] and promise me that whether it's partly now or partly when you're at the gym or partly when you're on a

[00:02:27] walk later, like promise me we'll finish this episode all the way through because I'm going to

[00:02:32] save what the fate of the show is for the end of the episode to kind of download you guys on where we,

[00:02:42] my FMLR community, are going to go from here. So we're going to cover a lot of shit in this episode.

[00:02:49] Promise me if you've listened to all, however many hundreds of episodes there are, that you will

[00:02:54] finish this one out strong with a bang and let's get into it. I was really torn and went back and

[00:03:02] forth for months on what I wanted to do with whether I was going to end this show or continue it.

[00:03:08] And I want to talk about how the decision came about and what that brought up in me,

[00:03:15] because I think there's a really powerful lesson in that. So I, for a while had been telling the people

[00:03:23] in my like really close inner circle that I just wasn't feeling the passion around doing this podcast

[00:03:30] anymore. I was like, I just feel like my heart isn't in it. I feel like I've checked out. I feel

[00:03:35] like it's starting to shift in a way where I feel like I'm just churning out content and I like don't

[00:03:43] even know what I'm talking about half the time anymore. And I really had to like get quiet with

[00:03:49] myself and figure out what that meant for me personally. Obviously this is a stream of income for me,

[00:03:59] for my family. We just bought this new house. We are in the thick of raising a toddler. Like there's a

[00:04:08] lot of things that we're juggling right now. And I was like, I can't just throw away this stream of

[00:04:15] income. And by the way, how fucking lucky am I that a stream of income and quote work includes me

[00:04:21] sitting on my fucking couch and recording into a microphone in my pajamas and talking to a bunch of

[00:04:29] love, I should be so lucky. So there was a lot of how are you going to just walk away from something

[00:04:38] that feels like a dream? And is this just another one of your ebbs and flows? Like will you find the

[00:04:45] passion again? Will you be able to, you know, take a couple weeks and then it'll come back and you'll

[00:04:52] regret if you stop it. There were so many different things that I was wrestling with. And what I ended up

[00:04:58] coming to was I cannot make decisions and make choices around fear because that's really what

[00:05:06] was in the root of that entire thought process was like, well, what if I give up that stream of income

[00:05:14] and I'm not okay and it's not supplemented somehow? What if I am making the wrong decision? What if I'm

[00:05:21] stopping before there's a something happens and the show becomes like even more wildly successful?

[00:05:29] A lot of fear went into pondering this decision for a couple months. And I eventually was like, okay,

[00:05:37] I can't make decisions out of fear. A. B. I have to not be in limbo and allow myself to commit to a

[00:05:49] decision before the universe is then going to show up for me and bring me whatever is going to

[00:05:57] supplement this income stream and bring me the answer to why I wanted to stop or bring me that next

[00:06:05] chapter. And I knew that wholeheartedly from things I have gone through in the past. It has always been

[00:06:13] very clear that once I make a decision, it starts to open up and everything kind of falls into place

[00:06:19] and you have some clarity and some direction and the universe cannot match that clarity and match that

[00:06:27] direction until you have decided it within yourself. So for these four months where I was going back and

[00:06:32] forth, I was so unsure and I was being mirrored back all of that unsureness. There would be times where I'd

[00:06:41] be like, oh no, like I actually think if I revamp it, then like I can reignite the passion for it. Or

[00:06:46] well, no, this week I really just like want to like throw in the towel and call it quits.

[00:06:50] I really went back and forth on everything. But the lesson that I want you guys to take from that is if

[00:06:57] there is something in your life that you are unsure about or you feel like you're in limbo or

[00:07:04] you're not fully sure which way to go, the peace comes when you make a decision. And whether that

[00:07:13] decision is right or wrong will work itself out inevitably in some way, shape or form. But if we know that

[00:07:21] we are creating the life that we want, the peace comes when we make that decision. You just have to put one

[00:07:29] foot in front of the other and start walking in some direction that feels right. And if you end up

[00:07:35] somewhere you don't want to be, you can always turn the fuck around. You can always come back. You can

[00:07:41] always figure it out. But I knew that I had to listen to the fact that I wasn't having that passion for this

[00:07:51] anymore. It's been four years. I've had such amazing conversations with such amazing people.

[00:07:57] I've had really deep healing moments on this show. I've had hilarious moments that I'll probably regret

[00:08:06] having public on this show. And there was something within me that was just like, it's time. And I don't

[00:08:14] think if I would have made that decision, would I be allowing the space for whatever is next to come in

[00:08:25] to my life to take shape. And I am ready for that next thing. I am ready for that next chapter. I am ready for

[00:08:33] whatever that next piece is going to be that makes me feel alive as an individual. I take solace in the fact

[00:08:43] that there are so many fucking episodes on this show that people can go back and binge. And for shits and giggles,

[00:08:49] we are going to run through a couple of my favorites. If we're going in any type of order,

[00:09:02] we have to take you back to the beginning in season one, episode three and four.

[00:09:10] Look, I haven't talked in length about it publicly, except on the minis on Patreon. But we all know that

[00:09:19] there was a resurgence from my gem of an ex-husband. And that resurgence had to do with certain takedowns

[00:09:29] of social media accounts. I did go into it a little bit in episode three, Fuck Narcissists. But it's

[00:09:37] really the episode that came after that that was so shocking to me. Fuck con artists, where basically

[00:09:46] a woman who was pretty well known online and in the OnlyFans space came on the show who had also

[00:09:56] been a victim of Daniel. And the story she told was fucking wild. The amount of DMs I got from random

[00:10:05] listeners who I had, you know, were just fans of the show, friends from high school who like I had no

[00:10:12] idea were tuning in. It was insane. And the plot twist of that was that I was originally supposed

[00:10:20] to have someone else on that episode. And she called me the night before it aired and was like,

[00:10:27] I'm panicking. They're going to come after me. You have to like, please don't air this. And so

[00:10:32] Jackie, God bless her, stayed up. My producer at the time stayed up all night, re-edited the next

[00:10:39] episode that we were going to air. And it ended up being incredible and amazing. What you don't know

[00:10:46] is that the girl who panicked and was like, please pull my episode got a call from none other than

[00:10:56] my ex-husband and her ex basically saying, why the fuck are you on Gabrielle's podcast?

[00:11:02] We're listening to it right now. I hope you enjoyed the show, guys.

[00:11:06] I cannot tell you how my jaw was on the floor recording that entire episode. It is so worth

[00:11:16] going back to listen to. And then there's a lot of juicy details on Patreon surrounding that,

[00:11:23] that I obviously don't feel comfortable putting on the main show. So I will let you do with that

[00:11:30] what you will. I would be remiss if I did not mention the two episodes I did with Michael Cawson,

[00:11:40] Jana Kramer's ex-husband. At the time he was not an ex-husband. And the main thing I want to highlight

[00:11:49] is that even after all the shit that I've been through with men and picking out red flags and like

[00:11:55] seeing the signs, when I tell you this man came on and did this two part episode and I was like

[00:12:03] sipping the fucking Kool-Aid, I was like, yes, this is like, he has done the work. He's got his shit

[00:12:09] together. He has figured it out. When I tell you that that is not what fucking happened, I will never

[00:12:16] forget when the divorce news broke. Jana messaged me and was like, everything he said in those episodes

[00:12:25] was bullshit. And I was like, oh my God, like, how is that? Like, that's so scary that someone can

[00:12:32] sell you so hard on one thing. And it's just not that way at all. Those episodes, if you go back and

[00:12:43] listen to them with that in mind, are a totally different listen. And those are also back in season

[00:12:51] one. They're called Fuck Sex Addiction and The Fucking Good Fight with Mike Cawson. My favorites,

[00:12:58] and I know a lot of your favorites because of the replays and the DMs that I get, are the like OG

[00:13:05] solo episodes talking about like fuck love bombing. I guess I'll stop saying the F word on this because

[00:13:12] it'll just be the entire freaking show. Cheaters and grief and forgiveness and abandonment, like all

[00:13:22] of the OG solo episodes where I actually had the stamina and the knowledge to talk about one specific

[00:13:29] topic for an entire hour long episode. Those will always have a special place in my heart. And if you

[00:13:37] are ever going through one of those things, those are the ones I really recommend going back.

[00:13:42] And taking a listen to because they're very poignant and they really will speak to you in a different

[00:13:47] way if you are going through that type of shit in your life. For those of you that go back and listen to

[00:13:55] the tea filled episodes, um, three and four that we mentioned, you should also check out Fuck Temptation

[00:14:03] with Casey Campbell. Um, because that episode was wild in the sense of she was in my ex-husband's

[00:14:12] circle. She was broken up with on national television from her long time partner who ended up becoming

[00:14:22] Daniel's best friend. It's wild. It's amazing to see her transformation is really empowering.

[00:14:29] And you know, there's just a lot of tea in it. Obviously having some of the bigger names on this

[00:14:39] show has been amazing. Um, the Amanda Knox episode, Annalyn McCord, Shanae Grimes, like just really fun,

[00:14:49] amazing interviews. The Amanda Knox interview is like, was a highlight for me because of the content

[00:14:55] and, and being able to not just rehash the story she went through, but like highlight how she healed

[00:15:02] from it and the continuous discussion of how trauma implements itself into your life, um, when it goes

[00:15:11] unhealed. And then of course the season three premiere episode, Fuck Your Trauma with Christopher

[00:15:18] McNeely. I did an entire season of mini bonus episodes with Christopher McNeely. He is

[00:15:25] such a gem. I am so obsessed with him. So many of the Patreon members are now like me, so obsessed

[00:15:32] with him. His story is just incredible. His outlook and perspective on life is incredible. He is my

[00:15:38] person that I call when I am tail spinning. And to piggyback off of that, the episodes that my mom have

[00:15:47] done on the main show are wonderful. She also did an entire mini season with me, 12 episodes,

[00:15:54] wine with Wallace, some of which are therapy in a mini and some of which are hilarious mom and daughter

[00:16:03] content, but that entire season is so fun. And she's always such a wonderful guest little mom.

[00:16:12] Obviously my girl, Morgan will let, um, the fact that she chose FML talk to come

[00:16:17] on and share her cheating breakup story, um, for the first time publicly was not only like meant so

[00:16:28] much to me because we weren't friends at the time, but it also was a big moment for the show because like

[00:16:34] E! News, People Magazine, like a ton of like outlets started picking it up.

[00:16:39] One of our highest downloaded episodes because of the publicity that it got.

[00:16:42] And that was a really crazy moment for me, for her, the healing that that took place. Um,

[00:16:50] fuck Carly Craig coming on and doing her two part. I mean, there's been so many episodes where

[00:16:59] women have come forward to really like speak their truth and tell their story and be like,

[00:17:03] this shit happened to me and it's not fucking okay. And I'm so proud to have created a platform

[00:17:10] where women have felt safe doing that and men. We've had awesome men on this show, but really like

[00:17:16] to come forward with those stories that they didn't feel comfortable telling anywhere else is such a,

[00:17:22] I hold that near and dear to my heart and thank them for their vulnerability and their honesty.

[00:17:28] I can't not mention Trevor Hall that so many of you guys fell in love with and discovered

[00:17:34] his music in the ridiculous misadventures of a single girl. What a fucking full circle moment

[00:17:40] that was to be able to interview him and have him on my show after his music quite literally saved my

[00:17:46] life on that healing journey. And then to get invited to go to Red Rocks, um, in Colorado to see

[00:17:55] his show was one of the most amazing spiritual experiences I have had in a very long time and got

[00:18:02] to see a handful of my FMLers there, which was fucking awesome. Okay. You guys, I could literally

[00:18:07] go on and on and on, um, about the different episodes and what they've done for me. I would love

[00:18:14] for you guys to share and post your favorite episodes and tag me in them so I can see what you guys are,

[00:18:24] you know, remembering and taking from this show. I just like have so much love in my heart.

[00:18:31] For you all being able to like connect with you over these years. And it's just been a really

[00:18:41] special experience. And I have felt you every step of the way. There is so much I am looking

[00:18:49] forward to, um, moving forward in this journey, uh, that we call life. Um, and in this FML world,

[00:18:57] obviously you guys know from the couple episodes that I've done with Tay, we have our new book.

[00:19:06] We just submitted our final edit, which was like the biggest fucking weight off of our shoulders. Um,

[00:19:12] why we thought doing this venture with a newborn was going to be a good idea. I don't know.

[00:19:18] Blame it on the fucking hormones because it has been wild this past 16 months to try and

[00:19:26] figure out the time to sit down and write a goddamn book, but we did it. It's here. I don't know about

[00:19:33] when it's going to be published. Um, I will of course keep you guys posted as I find out more

[00:19:37] information, but I can tell you from reading this last pass, how excited I am for my community to read

[00:19:48] it. I think it's going to reach so many new people. And it's similar to FML in the version of like, you feel

[00:19:58] like you're reading someone's journal and being taken on this fun journey with them, but in smaller excerpts. Um,

[00:20:06] so really what we do is we break down all the different traumas, all the different life events, all the

[00:20:12] different experiences we've had that are shared individual experiences that we have both had.

[00:20:19] And we really take you through the story of the experience and then tell you about the lessons and

[00:20:26] how we were able to heal ourselves a little bit from those experiences that made us more whole so

[00:20:33] that we could then find the healthy relationship that we are in now. Um, it is for my single people.

[00:20:38] It is for my people in relationships. It is for my people just wanting to be fucking entertained

[00:20:42] and evolve yourself a little bit. And I think you guys are really going to love it. It is called

[00:20:48] finding you through finding me. Um, I can't wait for you guys to read Tay as an author. He's

[00:20:54] so fucking wonderful. And we will be keeping you guys posted on what I'm about to tell you.

[00:21:12] I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do when ending the show. I knew that I couldn't commit to

[00:21:19] like keeping up with an episode a week on the main platform with the length that they needed, um,

[00:21:27] having the guests for them. I wanted to really do something that was more, a little,

[00:21:33] a little more relaxed, a little more low key. So let me tell you how we will be staying in touch and

[00:21:40] keeping you posted on all of the things. So you have heard me talk about Patreon on the show many

[00:21:47] of times. You can be on it with an app. You can also download the RSS feed from the app so that

[00:21:55] everything that gets posted on my Patreon shows up into your Apple podcast or your Spotify,

[00:22:00] like any other podcast that you listen to. But what I decided I wanted to do was start like

[00:22:07] just having fucking fun and doing kind of whatever I wanted to do. The minis have always been more

[00:22:14] freeing, more fun. They're usually 15 minutes. And I knew I wanted to kind of move the whole show

[00:22:21] onto Patreon. Let me show you what that's going to look like. When you sign up, there are 14,

[00:22:29] 14 mini bonus seasons that you can binge at your leisure. They're all, if you are viewing it on the

[00:22:36] app, they're all categorized into their little seasons. So you can like find them easily and

[00:22:41] just binge away. And it wasn't until I went back to organize all those that I realized how much good

[00:22:48] fucking content is on there. There are fun, ridiculous seasons, like dirty little secrets,

[00:22:55] where I have a lot of people, you know, from the main show, um, Morgan will let Tori deal,

[00:23:01] scout Taylor Compton, uh, come on and tell basically insane stories that they didn't feel

[00:23:08] comfortable telling publicly. Tea time with Tay, where Tay and I sit down and go through like an

[00:23:12] entire season. There's the ridiculous misadventures director's cut that has like deleted chapters from

[00:23:18] book two, really personal updates with some of the men that were included in those books that I

[00:23:25] didn't feel comfortable sharing on the main show. There's a talking shit with Brit season,

[00:23:30] where Brit, who you know is Jess and I sit down and it's like wildly fun. There's a wine with Wallace,

[00:23:37] um, which has a ton of healing because obviously my mother, um, and there's stuff that is,

[00:23:43] I can't tell you about, uh, publicly on the show that you will find out when you sign up for

[00:23:49] Patreon. There's an entire season with someone that's like really cool, really special and really

[00:23:54] involved in the future of FML, but it is a, uh, a VIP secret that you find out when you sign up

[00:24:02] on Patreon. Anyways, there's 14 seasons of content to binge, but moving forward, what I've decided to

[00:24:11] do in January, once this show ends, um, as you're listening to this, the first week of January,

[00:24:17] happy 2025, by the way, motherfuckers, guess I should have started the episode with that.

[00:24:22] What I will be doing is moving the whole show onto Patreon. And instead of the mini bonus episodes

[00:24:28] that are usually like anywhere from 15 to 20 minutes, they will be closer to 30 minutes and one

[00:24:33] episode a week will be releasing there, but it's going to be my way. Uh, I'm going to invite the people

[00:24:40] on that I want to talk to. We're going to do the kind of like overview seasons that I want to do.

[00:24:46] The first one that we're diving into is lessons of FML. And it's more or less, I bring on some of

[00:24:54] your favorite people, Tay, Brittany, Carly Craig, Jackie's going to come on and do an episode, uh,

[00:25:01] Morgan Willett, um, and they are going to come on. We're going to hang, we're going to talk, we're

[00:25:05] going to laugh. Um, and they're going to tell us a story and therefore lesson that they have learned

[00:25:12] in the recent future. It's just going to be more relaxed. It's going to be more chill. It's going

[00:25:17] to be just like an easier vibe for me. Um, and I love getting to create these little themed seasons.

[00:25:27] Um, so we're gonna, we're going to be doing that on Patreon to get just that content and to get added

[00:25:34] to the self love club on Facebook. It's seven bucks for the month. That is literally what I spend on my

[00:25:42] venti Starbucks coffee with a tip almost every day. Um, so it's $7 a month for that. If you want

[00:25:50] to be added on the close friends on Instagram, where you see a ton of behind the scenes, a lot

[00:25:58] of cute baby content and a lot of Q and A's and just like, you know, all the shit that I don't feel

[00:26:05] comfortable sharing to hundreds and thousands of people that comes with the VIP tier. So you get all

[00:26:12] the content you get added to close friends. You get a blog post that goes out every Monday. Um,

[00:26:19] that's kind of like a fun excerpt of how you would read in one of my books. That's kind of like an

[00:26:26] update on life, uh, with me and just whatever I'm going through or want to be talking about.

[00:26:32] And that goes out in an email form every Monday. Um, and that tier is $10 a month. So there's choices,

[00:26:39] there's options, there's so much fricking content on there. Um, and there will continue to be,

[00:26:45] and I'm excited to be able to do that with whoever decides to, uh, come party with us on Patreon. So if

[00:26:53] you want to do that, you go to patreon.com slash FML talk. Um, I will also post it on my Instagram

[00:27:00] stories so you can just like get easily added in that sense. And if you're joining the VIP $10 tier,

[00:27:07] please DM me, uh, after you join so I can add you to the close friends. There's like a highlight that

[00:27:13] you can then access on my page with like photos of people from the book. And every time someone

[00:27:21] joins it, like I get messages being like, Oh my fucking God, you weren't kidding. Like this is

[00:27:25] wild that you are truly my VIP FML group. Um, so I hope to see some more of you come hang with us

[00:27:35] there so that we can have our little community continue over there. If not, I love you. And I

[00:27:41] hope that you go back and binge these episodes that you need. And I will continue to be present on

[00:27:48] social media so that we can stay connected in that sense. And whenever the big announcements come,

[00:27:53] you will be kept up to date in real time as I am able to share it. Now it would not be a final

[00:28:02] solo episode if we didn't do some FML stories. So here we go. Hello, Gabrielle. I met, we'll call him

[00:28:19] Voldemort because he kind of resembles him in high school. We hit it off really well. And we were

[00:28:25] connected at the hip for a year and a half. My senior year of high school, I found out he was

[00:28:31] cheating with a 15 year old. He was 18 mind you. And our relationship quickly ended. I spent that

[00:28:37] summer dating other people, never really finding anyone interesting. And then Voldemort ended up walking

[00:28:42] back into my life as they do. Stupid me not wanting to be alone takes him back. It took a few years and a few

[00:28:50] more quote instances of him chatting with girls, but we eventually got married five years later. Within two

[00:28:57] years of being married, I found messages to two other girls trying to meet up. Stupid me listened to his

[00:29:03] lies of how much he loved me, never wants to lose me, would change and get better, blah, blah, blah. Of course, I

[00:29:10] moved on and forgot about it. It's funny how we're able to do that. Anyways, we ended up buying a home,

[00:29:17] having a kid, establishing careers and living the dream. Our relationship was going on 22 years total.

[00:29:24] Typical relationship with plenty of ups and downs, but the typical marriage you would expect.

[00:29:29] Eventually his work hours would get later and later. And then suddenly he would just grab a hotel

[00:29:33] because he didn't want to drive the hour home to catch a couple hours of sleep. One day he came home

[00:29:39] early in a bad mood. By that time, I'm already doing all the nightly chores because I knew I'd get stuck

[00:29:44] with them anyways. And he got all ticked off about it. We ended up having a fight and I finally asked,

[00:29:49] do you even want to be here? At which he replied, not really. So we had a long talk at this point.

[00:29:55] I'm asking him if there is someone else. He said, absolutely not. He wouldn't do that to me anymore.

[00:30:01] After being up all night, I had the idea to check his phone records the next day. Sure enough,

[00:30:06] I found a new number he was spending the entire day talking on the phone to, texting all hours,

[00:30:11] day and night. He had even called this person at midnight the previous Saturday night when I slept

[00:30:16] in the next room. So I approached him about it and he completely denied it. After a small fight,

[00:30:22] I get into his phone and found her name. Voldemort said she was just a friend he really connected to.

[00:30:28] I called BS on him. He said, so funny. That's the same fucking response I got from my ex-husband.

[00:30:35] I was like, she's just a friend. We're really connected because she understands me.

[00:30:41] Not Laurel, by the way, the other random person he had been texting. Okay, sorry, I digress.

[00:30:47] I called BS on him. He said he was only talking to her and nothing had happened in between.

[00:30:52] He confessed she was only 25. He's 40 years old, mind you. Two days go by and I'm still

[00:30:58] checking the phone records and he was still on the phone with her all day. We're talking 12 to 15

[00:31:03] hours while he worked. Jesus. So I gave him the ultimatum, her or me. He said, I want to give her

[00:31:10] a try. A phrase that I will never forget. Oh, the audacity. Within two months of this,

[00:31:21] we were divorced and he moved in with her and her husband. Oh my God, I can't believe what I'm

[00:31:26] reading right now. Yes, you heard right. Moved in with her and her husband along with her two kids

[00:31:33] and some guy friend of her husband. A few months go by and I find out she's pregnant and claiming

[00:31:39] it's Voldemort's kid. Oh, this is messy. The thing is, Voldemort had a vasectomy 12 years prior,

[00:31:47] so he can't have kids. Oh my God. This kid can't be her husband's or the other dude's kid she's

[00:31:55] living with, but whatever. Not my problem. Not my, oh my God. A year goes by with a lot more drama

[00:32:02] basically because he turned into a horrible father constantly canceling on his weekends with our kid.

[00:32:07] Last November, I finally asked if he even wanted to be a father anymore and he couldn't answer me.

[00:32:12] That hurt our kid so badly and since then our kid has wanted nothing to do with him.

[00:32:17] Oh, that's devastating. They haven't spoken in almost a year. It's been two years since I found

[00:32:21] out my marriage was ending. I stand here now so much happier. I didn't know what happiness was

[00:32:26] until I got divorced. Fuck yes, same here, bitch. I can do things I want to do without having to ask

[00:32:33] someone what they think. I finally took that hot air balloon ride I begged him to take me on but

[00:32:38] never got. I went to several concerts seeing artists I never thought I'd get to see. I even went

[00:32:43] skydiving. My kid and I have an awesome relationship and he understands that his dad rejecting him had nothing

[00:32:49] to do with him that his dad simply can't see how awesome he is. Voldemort and I were the couple

[00:32:55] everyone thought would be together forever but now I'm glad we didn't. If there's another man out

[00:33:01] there for me, I know all the red flags I ignored those years so I won't be making the same mistakes

[00:33:06] wasting more precious time on another loser or I'll just be single living it up makes no difference to

[00:33:12] me. I'm 40 years young and life is just getting started. Holy shit. Way to go out with a bang on

[00:33:19] the FML stories. Wow, girl. I am sending you so much love, so much empowerment, so much fuck yes energy

[00:33:28] that once again the trash has taken itself out and I'm so glad that you and your kid are thriving

[00:33:36] and doing the things that you want to do and being in your fucking happy phase.

[00:33:42] I want to remind you guys that we still have some spots available on the three trips that we're

[00:33:50] doing in 2025. I'm so fucking excited. We are doing Columbia in March and that is March 14th to 17th.

[00:34:01] It's a really quick mini trip. It's three nights, four days. You get in, you get out, you don't have

[00:34:06] to take too much work off. It's over a long weekend and then you can also stay and travel if you want to

[00:34:12] take a longer trip. We have a few spots left open on that, but you have to book it like this month

[00:34:19] in the next couple weeks because that trip is about to close. Then we are going to Costa Rica in April.

[00:34:26] April, oh God, I really need to have all these dates pulled up before I start recording, but here we are.

[00:34:34] April 21st to 27th for Costa Rica and Jess, everybody's favorite character from Eat Brat FML,

[00:34:43] aka Brittany, is the special guest on that trip. It is going to be epic. It is a crazy

[00:34:51] zip lining and hot springs and like all like the itinerary is fucking awesome. And then in July,

[00:34:58] we are going to Croatia, July 22nd to 27th. There are some spots left open on that trip too.

[00:35:06] And that trip's a little cheaper because we're going to Europe and everything's cheaper in Europe. So I

[00:35:11] think that one's 2,975 and flights are not included, but it is cheaper if you fly into London and then do a

[00:35:18] popover to Croatia. I can't tell you who that special guest is. You would have to sign up and

[00:35:24] listen to her season on the Patreon subscription in order to know, but let me tell you, it is

[00:35:31] the ultimate guest of all guests. I am obsessed with her and I can't wait to announce her to the

[00:35:37] world in a more public fashion. These trips have been so soul fulfilling for me being able to see

[00:35:44] all of these incredible women come together and bond instantly over the shit that they've been

[00:35:50] through and just have a fucking rad time like remembering that women can just be with women and have like

[00:35:57] the most incredible fulfilling experiences. These trips have changed my life and all of the people who

[00:36:03] have gone on them feel that way as well. And if you want to do something for yourself and give yourself

[00:36:10] a massive self-love cocktail ingredient, come travel with us. You can find all of this information in

[00:36:17] the link that's in my bio. You click that and you'll see like, come to Colombia with me, come to Costa Rica

[00:36:23] with me, come to Croatia with me. So if you want to grab one of those spots, do it. I am urging you to do it.

[00:36:30] It will be a life-changing experience, I promise. I need to remind myself that this show

[00:36:39] will always exist on the platforms that it exists on. It will always be available to me because it is my

[00:36:49] IP to come back and pick up whenever I see fit or whenever I feel the passion to do so. I do hope

[00:37:00] that you guys will come give Patreon a try, if only for a month, to binge all of the epic content that's

[00:37:07] on there. And then you can decide if you want to stay, whatever, no judgment. I hope to see you

[00:37:12] guys there because I love being able to connect with you and you can like comment on all of the

[00:37:18] posts and like I can write back. Anyways, whatever. It's a great situation over there. But regardless,

[00:37:25] I want to, again, just thank you for... I'm not going to get emotional. I'm not going to get emotional.

[00:37:33] Thank you for taking the journey with me. If you've read my books, thank you for sitting in the

[00:37:42] shit with me. If you have listened to the episodes where I have gotten on and just fucking cried,

[00:37:49] thank you for holding space for me and allowing me to do that. Just thank you. Thank you for allowing

[00:37:55] me to be human with my flaws. And I am so grateful to have had all of you with me on this journey.

[00:38:06] And I truly cannot wait for this next chapter. I love you. I will hopefully see you guys on Patreon.

[00:38:18] And if not, I am sending you the biggest hug, the biggest kiss. I feel like I need to do some epic

[00:38:26] sign off for this episode. So we're going to just say hello, all of my beautiful freaking people.

[00:38:33] I love you. And I will see you soon.

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